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About Z

I'm a teacher, I'm a student, I'm a person who's just trying to achieve my goals and dreams. This blog helps me get through this crazy thing we call life and hopefully it helps you too. Laugh, cry, and celebrate along with me on my journey.

Just keep swimming!

Social media has a tendency to make us feel inadequate; seeing everyone succeeding and achieving their goals. But keep in mind everyone has their own path. Everyone has their own goals and their own time frames. Don’t feel discouraged. Keep going and doing what you need to do for your own future. Be proud of your friends and be proud of your progress.


First Day Jitters! 

It’s official! 

First day back to school! Who knew first day of school will forever be a day that I am excited for. 

So my second year of teaching starts and I’m pretty sure I’m more nervous this year than I was last year. New curriculum, new rules, new people, new students. So much change! 

Times like today make me think of this great book I once read to students: First Day Jitters by Julie Danneberg. 

( yes I am writing a blog post before 7 am and yes that is amazon because let’s be real amazon is life) 
Now I don’t want to spoil the ending if you haven’t read it quite yet but I do recommend you pick it up and read it to your kids and even for yourself. It has great illustrations, simple but effective language and a great message. Everyone has things they are scared of or are nervous about and it’s ok. Feelings are meant to be felt and acknowledging this is important as a role model to children. 

So feel scared and nervous and excited about this new start and let me know how your first day back to school went 😊 


10 months down, 10 years to go 

Count up, not down. 

Be proud of your accomplishments thus far instead of counting down until something in the future. 

I have nearly finished my first school year as a teacher. That’s 10 full months of pretending to be an adult and like I know what I’m doing. That’s 10 full months of making decisions not knowing how they will end up. That’s 10 full months of trying the best that I can to give my students everything they need to succeed. 

So this ending is bittersweet… I’m so grateful to have had this experience and I’m so grateful to have gotten to know all of these little people. 

Happy summer ladies and gentlemen. Enjoy it while it lasts… don’t count down until the next thing. Just enjoy the moment and the time you have now. Have some adventures, try to relax and regain your strength for the next little people. 

Send help! 

As my first year of being a teacher is slowly… very slowly coming to an end, I’m realizing it’s been nothing less than an adventure. 

I’m also realizing I’m finding it harder and harder to do things that make me happy. I’m so tired and I just want to be quiet sometimes. Just to have some time where I don’t have to make decisions, answer questions or give directions. Which usually looks like me spending any free time in bed watching tv mindlessly. 

There’s so many things that I used to love that would bring me genuine joy. I loved exploring new places and taking pictures. I enjoyed painting and creating art. I used to love running and exercising. I loved just going for walks and listening to good music. 

As the weather is nicer, I’m still going to be crazy busy but I really have to find a way to do more things for myself. Even if it’s just sitting on my porch and relaxing with a book. 

How can I find time to do things for myself when I’m so busy doing things for others? If anyone has wise words, advice or suggestions please share. I’m open to some motivation! 

– Even those who usually spread motivation need some once in a while- 


Religion or not; Sending out good vibes

As a teacher, religion has always been something that was a question that you don’t ask. 

Religion is a controversial topic that is either a heavy debate ending with offended people or a topic you just don’t discuss openly. Personally, I’ve always been curious about religion because it wasn’t explicitly taught or introduced to me growing up. What resulted growing up without a specific religion chosen for me: I was able to come to my own conclusions. 

While in no way am I an expert in my own religion or others, there are some things I believe that help me get through the day. 

I believe that everything happens for a reason. I believe that the universe has a plan for us and that each good or bad decision that changes your life… there’s a reason for it. 

I believe that if you send out good vibes into the universe, you’ll get good vibes back. There’s no science behind this, but having a positive mindset often results in positive outcomes… at least in my experiences. 

I believe that there are signs that help us make decisions. No I don’t think that some higher being is sitting up there telling us to do one thing or another but I do believe that the universe is not out to get us. It’s just trying to help so it sends us hints now and then; kinda like trusting your gut. When you really want something and it’s just not happening for whatever reason, maybe it’s not the right time or it’s not meant to happen. 

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t think that we should give up trying and working hard because the universe has a plan. It just helps me get through the day knowing that there’s a reason for all the obstacles and all the frustrations. It helps knowing that working hard pays off but even if you mess up, it’s ok. 

So in times like this, when I struggle with things in my life, I like to think that it’s all part of the plan and I just have to hold out till the good part. 

So I hope today, you send out some positive vibes, get some signs you were waiting for and trust that everything will be ok even if it’s not the way you envisioned. 


What I wish someone told me…

Weak is not a dirty word. It’s not something to be ashamed of. It’s not something to be embarrassed of. 

You will get stronger, you will work harder and you will achieve more than you ever thought possible. 

Don’t let one word define you. It’s only temporary. Let it push you to be better. You are not weak. You’re a work in progress. 

It’s ok, it too shall pass.

Nothing great is ever easy. Being alive, being a part of this world full of beauty and pain is a blessing. No one ever said it would be easy though. 

Last week was rough to say the least. Let’s just say I spent my lunch break hiding in the bathroom and crying. 

I felt weak and hopeless and overwhelmed. I felt embarrassed that I felt so weak. Like it wasn’t ok. Like feeling weak was wrong. 

But in reality, feeling weak makes you stronger. It makes you human. It’s not a great feeling but it does happen occasionally.  

The thoughts running through my head were very simple… I didn’t want to feel weak and the easy way to get out of that was to leave, to leave what was creating these emotions. 

What I did instead, was put on some makeup to cover my tear stained face, put on my favorite lipstick and push through. I smiled my fake smile and I said the polite nice things. I went home and cried some more. Yea it sucked. Yea I would have so much rather have gone home and never came back but life doesn’t work like that. 

When things get hard, you have two choices: find something to fight for, or give up. I found something to fight for, someone to fight for: myself. I wasn’t going to let a rough week ruin what I have spent my whole life preparing for. 

So when things get hard, when things feel impossibly hopeless, find your reason to push through. Find that hope, whether it be your strong will, your hope for the future, your long awaited goal or simply that feeling of: yes! I survived it and I’m better for it. 

Sometimes feeling weak is ok. It’s just temporary and it shall pass. 

Stay hopeful my friends and stay pushing through.