Monthly Archives: January 2017

Feeling grounded amongst the chaos that is my life.

Sometimes things get overwhelming. Sometimes everything is happening all at once and it’s a struggle to keep calm. 

In my life, this is a common occurrence. I don’t know if that’s my personality or just how things work out. In my life, things are either not happening at all or all at once. 

With my perfectionist tendencies and anxiety it’s safe to say I freak out frequently. During times like this, having a strong support system is so important. Whether it be friends, family or a significant other, it’s important to have someone with an outside perspective to keep you grounded. 

I’m so grateful for my work family for supporting me in all my endeavors. I’m grateful for my family who is always there to help in anyway they can. I’m grateful for my bf who holds my hand and tries to convince me everything will be ok. 

I’m so grateful to the people in my life who keep me sane and try to support me in any way they can. 

So on the start of the longest day I’ve had in awhile, as I try to mentally plan out my day, I think of my support system who has my back no matter how many times I mess up, cry or freak out. 

Thank you. I’m more grateful than I can express. 

-Z 

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Throwback Thursday revamped

It’s easy to look back. It’s easy to reminisce and have nostalgia of a “better” time. 

Our society is constantly reinforcing this thinking back. With our “throwbacks” and “retro” interests, we are constantly urged to think back to a time in the past. 

What is so much more difficult is thinking forward. Of thinking of the future, of the thing that hasn’t happened yet. It’s scary to think of what could possibly occur in the future and so we look back instead of forward.

I’m tired of looking back. Of remembering all the things that have already happened. Don’t get me wrong, I’m so grateful for the good and the bad for making me who I am today. But I want to think of the present and the future. I want to think of what might be rather than what might have been.

So on this “throwback Thursday”, I am thinking of the vacation I have coming up and all the fun that will be. I’m thinking of my hair appointment this weekend and how sometimes a change is needed. I’m thinking of my first grad school class next week and how despite the amount of work and stress there will be, how excited I am to be learning again. 

On this “throwback Thursday” let’s try to look forward rather than backward. 

-Z 

Lightbulb: I’m an adult! 

All of a sudden, I feel this sense of growing up; of all of a sudden being an adult. 

Let’s back up: 

It’s a regular Tuesday, I’m sitting on the bus on my way to work and all of a sudden I have these thoughts in my head. Like I’m an adult, I have a full time job, I’m a teacher, I’m going on vacation with my boyfriend in a month, I’m starting grad school in a week, I’m paying for grad school, I’m trying to get a car or move out, I’m thinking of when I get paid so I know when to splurge and when to save. 

Now, to be fair, that’s a lot of thoughts to have all at once, and while I do feel a little overwhelmed, I kind of feel accomplished and proud. I feel like I’ve finally come to the point in my life where I feel content with where I am and am looking forward to the future. 

I’m an adult. Yea I’m still living at home and my parents still make me dinner and help me out more than I can ever express, but to me, I feel like an adult. I’m slowly transitioning into becoming an independent human and that’s exciting. 

Welcome to adulthood Z ☺

Life happens fast, live in the moment not your own head! 

Life moves fast. So why do we inisist on spending so much time making decisions? 

We spend so much time in our own heads overthinking that we end up missing the things that are happening here and now. 

Sometimes we just have to accept that something has happened and learn to appreciate it instead of doubting it and wondering if it’s real or too fast or long term. 

Things happen fast. Sometimes it’s scary but that doesn’t mean it’s not real. 

Accept it, appreciate it, enjoy it. Don’t forget to live in the moment instead of your own head! 

-Z 

New Year, New Mindset, Same me

Happy New Years!! 

To me, New Years is a big deal. It’s a time for reflection, celebration and a time to make changes. 

I’m not talking about joining a gym that you know you won’t go to or buying that juicer that will finally allow you to lose those pesky pounds. 

I’m talking about reflecting on the people in your life. Figuring out if they make your life better or just make things more difficult. 

There are always going to be people who are around when things are good or when they have the upper hand ( doing better than you, having more than you, feeling superior). But those people don’t stick around when things get hard or when things finally turn around and you’re doing better than them. These are the type of people that I advise you leave in the old year. 

This year, surround yourself with people who are there to build you up when you’re down and are there to celebrate your successes. Surround yourself with people who go out of their way to make time for you, whether it’s a phone call, that “how was your day” text or even a quick hug after a long day. Those are the people who will make this year better through the good times and the bad. Those are the people you should be keeping around. 

So this New Years, I’m grateful to have found someone who is that person for me. I’m grateful to have a family who is always supporting me. I’m grateful for my job that even on the worst days, brings me content. I’m so grateful and I can’t wait to see what this year will bring. 

So, Happy New Years, and I hope this year you find people who are worthy of your time, love and energy. 

-Z